About Emma
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5 Things I’m Thankful For at 26
I’m Thankful for Wine When I was a teenager anytime my mother would have a glass of wine withing 4 feet of me I would gag. The smell was horrific to me. Why on earth would anyone want to be near that- much less drink it! Now that I’m older my tolerance for alcohol in general has gotten better. Lately I’ve even began to enjoy a bottle of wine over dinner! I never thought I’d see the day. Honestly, life can be a whole heck of a lot. There is always something that needs doing, something going wrong, or another project to organize. Damn isn’t it nice to just sit…
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Birthday Sex
A stream of consciousness remembrance of my birthday and the first time having sex with my boyfriend for several months. His hands are so big. When they’re touching me I walk on air. They’re big heavy hands that take their time caressing down my body and slipping fingers under waist bands. “Can I take these off?” We’re going to have sex. He’s told me all week he was getting ready to make love to me on my birthday. I always giggled like it wasn’t a big deal. Like I didn’t need it. But now he’s kissed me. Now his hands have set my skin on fire. “Yes” My shorts slide…
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Are You There Libido? It’s Me, Emma.
I’ve pretty much always had a pretty high libido, but somehow in the last month or so that has just stopped. It’s completely disappeared.
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My First Sex Scene
There comes a time in every young pornagrapher’s life where they have to make the decision whether or not to jump into hardcore porn. For me, the decision to have sex on camera was a complicated one, but once I decided there was no going back. Since I had already worked with Finn from BoobyUniversity before, I thought that he would be the perfect first shoot. I was comfortable with him, I knew his style while filming, and I knew that he would make sure to acknowledge and follow my boundaries every step of the way. I couldn’t have picked anyone better to do my first sex scene with. So…
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Should I Have Sex on Camera?
If you’re on my blog you probably already know that sex isn’t really a priority for me. Intimacy and masturbation? Yes. Penetration, not so much. Sex for me has always been a performance. Something close to exercise that I with my partner. It’s a lot of fun and it can turn me on, but for the most part it’s not going to get me anywhere near an orgasm. I had pretty much branded myself as sex free when I decided that I wanted to make my living as a sex worker. I talked a lot about the oddity of being a greysexual sex worker before and I’ve also spent several…
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My First Porn Shoot
I want to preface this by saying I had an AMAZING time and this blog post will be overwhelmingly positive, BUT you will be reading a bit about how the bacon is made. If you’d rather keep the illusion that I really was just about to hop in the shower when the cameras just happened to start rolling, then maybe this is not the post for you! Otherwise keep reading to hear about my first day on a pro porn set. Getting Ready The first thing that happened on my first porn shoot was the sexiest thing of all… paperwork. I signed three or four documents that basically gave the…
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How I Got My First Vibrator in Front of 100 People
At the ripe age of 18, I had never even considered owning a vibrator. I was a theatre major in my first year at a public college. We were doing a weekend showing of The Vagina Monologues and I was responsible for operating one of the light boards. At this time in my life I was extremely shy about sex and sexuality, it was just something that was NOT talked about in my house. I never even got the sex talk, so to hear the word vagina so often had me blushing from the start. This is to say nothing of the vendors that partnered with the arts department for…
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5 Amazing Things I Can’t Live Without
Everyone has those things that they just always have with them, to the point that it's not even a second thought anymore.
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Three Things I Learned After One Year of Sex Work
Although I have spent many years dabbling in the adult work scene, I didn’t truly dive in full time until 2020. When I started taking it seriously I thought I knew everything there is to know about sex work. I couldn’t have been more wrong. An Epidemic of Shame The most impactful thing that I realized in this past year is that there is an epidemic of sexual shame worldwide. When we think of this type of shame we usually imagine how it affects women and it’s true that we often take the brunt of the overt attacks on sexuality. For men there is a different but equally damaging type…
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The Lie of the Online Slave
“Please mistress, I don’t have any money but I will be your slave. I will do anything you ask of me” I receive offers like this several times per week, and as the pandemic stretches on the frequency continues to grow. I sympathize with these guys, I really do. Money is tight right now and they are looking to fulfill their desire to be dominated on a discount. They think, surely, offering up myself as a slave will be worthwhile, I will do anything she wants. It will be mutually beneficial! This is almost never the reality, especially as I am an online only sex worker. When someone says they…
