Why I Love Blowjobs
Wet, sloppy, loud, dripping oral sex is my favorite sex act to perform on another person. I know some women arent into blowjobs, and Im probably a bad feminist because of how eager I am to take a throbbing cock into my mouth, but I cant help it. Its truly the only thing I think about in terms of having “sex” with a man. His dick shoved deep down my throat is paradise.
But… why am I so obsessed with this? Did porn really fuck me up?
Oral Fixation
Frued would probably have a field day with this one. MY whole life I have had an oral fixation. I just NEED something in my mouth. I used to chew on my toys, my hair, pretty much anything I could get my lips on when I was kid. This habit has stayed with me as I matured, turning into a nasty habit of biting my inner cheeks, snacking, and (before I quit) smoking weed all day.
I think it is only natural that this has translated to my sex life. In my first relationship, with a woman, I was the same way. Oral was always my go-to, I was great at using my tongue and I loved doing it. The first time I tried it on a guy was much different. I was awkward and had no idea what I was doing, but it did not stop me. I was never pressured, but I kept going back to it repeatedly. I wanted it in my mouth, to taste it on my tongue and feel the softness on my lips.
Eventually after some trial and error I learned and I started loving it. As I improved my deepthroating skills I made a discovery that turned my want to suck dick into a need.
The Cocksucking High
When I deepthroat, naturally I am holding my breath. It is possible to relax and breathe around it, but in my younger years of exploring power dynamics, it was hot to explore breath play and see how long I could stay down. An ex of mine would put a timer on and hold me down (consensually people, please don’t do this to your girlfriend without talking about it!!) until I had lasted a few seconds longer than the time before. Somewhere along the line I realized that this oxygen deprivation felt amazing.
After a few minutes of deepthroating I would become high. This kicked my libido into overdive and drove me to want to suck cock even more than before. I would be hungry for it and act like a wild animal for the rest of the time we were playing.
These days I don’t do much breath play. It isn’t very safe and I don’t enjoy the use of force like I used to. However, I do still get that same high when I deepthroat and it makes me excited every time.
The Mess
Over the years I have heavily fetishized drool and spit in the porn I watch. I love to see long strands stringing from a girl’s lips to the head of a cock that has just left her mouth. I guess it only makes sense that I would start to enjoy my own saliva as well. A big part of oral for me is that it reaches deep into my throat and pulls out the thicker drool. It get’s everywhere; my face, breasts, hair, chin, and more. For some reason, being covered in my own spit is extremely erotic to me!
